Sometimes I think I'm such a bad person
It is hard to be kind. Maybe because It's not a natural, self preservation, response, or we're all too self-centered and stuck in our own lives to focus on anything else most of the time.
I've always wondered why it was always so difficult for me to tell people I loved them, it's just not in my good will to do so. It might be because, mostly, we're so afraid of exposure, to show our "weak spot". And to realize it is not a weakness, but our biggest strength...well, it's not easy.
I'm afraid I might be hurting people just because I don't want to hurt myself. But the easiest way not to cut someone with a knife, is not to have one at all, and we just can't afford that.
Guess I just need to make amends with the fact that I'm an ass, and work to be better in the future. It's the least I can do.